Like, now. In times like this, the mind wanders and flips through the pages of the past-opening old wounds and lengthening the whole healing process.
Relieved yet disappointed. I still thank You tho, for Your will is perfect :)
When trials come, no longer fear.
I need answers
Blessed
Great day today so I’m recording it down so that I’ll never forget. School ended at 9, cny shopping with the parents, napped for 2 hours, training. Threw niqian!!! :) meant a lot to me haha. Was just really happy the whole day :) shall sleep before midnight to make today even better.
Thank God for He is good, for His mercies endure forever! :) may I always have this heart of thankfulness in whatever circumstance I’m in!
Status quo
Thank God for everything. He has been so wonderful, and ever so present in my life! The people whom He has placed in my life are simply amazing- God-centred, loving & selfless individuals who encourage me to grow in spiritual maturity. I’m really really really blessed and I just can’t thank Him enough :)
What do you do when you cry? What happens when despite your best efforts, those hot tears still manage to streak down your face? Do you turn to someone to cry out to or do you keep it all inside, burying it so deep in that it hurts yourself even more. For others, it may be a choice but to some, it is the only solution to ease the pain.
Stop being weak, and survive through this storm. You’ll make it through and then after everything can you crash and burn, falling through the cracks which you’re so careful of not touching now.
Hey friend, I missed you.
It hurts alot to think about how we have drifted. It really does :(
How we used to be such best friends at one point in time. Maybe the term best friend was never used, but you certainly were one to me. So when I got reduced to a mere acquaintance in your life, I was left alone ‘cause you were one of the nearest and dearest. It used to be a 3 but the number now stands at 2 and 1.
Perhaps I was the one who started staying away, but that wasn’t the only thing which had led to the demise of our friendship. Perhaps I’d changed…so changed beyond recognition that I no longer bear any resemblance to that friend you’d known. Perhaps, perhaps..does it matter? Clashing schedules, different circles of friends…we just drifted apart :/
Back to the present, something’s amiss whenever we talk. There’s this awkwardness that’s not even supposed to exist. Why. I wish for things to be the same again, I wish for us to be as close again.
I really cherish and treasure you as a friend. Time will heal all wounds, yes?
We are all created with this immense need to be loved & cared for. But somehow, that doesn’t immediately translate into a natural response to love & care for others. And I….
Heck. I can’t seem to continue putting my thoughts into words.
There is so much pent-up frustration, sadness, hopelessness and this sense of despair in me. So, soo far away from God..Dear Father, I miss you alot but my actions seem to contradict ‘cause I do nothing to improve the relationship :( I pre-occupy myself with stupid, meaningless activities which do not count for eternity and begrudge myself for not spending any time with You. I am now being very honest by saying that the only times I think of You are at meal times, before I sleep and when I need you. Well, I need you all the time but I only turn to you when I have got requests to make. Oh, sinful me, when will you ever realise!!!
Over the past few weeks, I got more sucked into the world. I became more judgmental, more uncaring, less kind and the light that I’m supposed to shine into this dark, fallen world is now almost extinguished? SUCKED INTO THIS HELL-HOLE SRSLY.
Many things’ve been on my mind lately…might be good to share them w people but opening up to people and sharing with them takes a lil’ effort :/
I worry about school, friends, grades, career?, the future but you know what, it’s STUPID to think about them when I divorce them from God. God is sovereign over all so how can i just limit Him to 1 area in my life :/
God help me.
/incoherent post but penning (typing) those train of thoughts down helped.
K.
Why does he look so sweet hahaha, *fangirltime* Reminds me of someone srsly.. his every expression, every action…everything!
“Why should all these matter?”
But don’t you know who you are?
The choices you make don’t make you who you are;
what Christ has done for you - makes you who you are.
It’s not about how much faith you have but about who your faith is in.
-Tenth Avenue North
Thanks buddy!
You are more
There’s a girl in the corner
With tear stains on her eyes
From the places she’s wandered
And the shame she can’t hide
She says, “How did I get here?
I’m not who I once was.
And I’m crippled by the fear
That I’ve fallen too far to love”
But don’t you know who you are,
What’s been done for you?
Yeah don’t you know who you are?
You are more than the choices that you’ve made,
You are more than the sum of your past mistakes,
You are more than the problems you create,
You’ve been remade.
Well she tries to believe it
That she’s been given new life
But she can’t shake the feeling
That it’s not true tonight
She knows all the answers
And she’s rehearsed all the lines
And so she’ll try to do better
But then she’s too weak to try
But don’t you know who you are?
You are more than the choices that you’ve made,
You are more than the sum of your past mistakes,
You are more than the problems you create,
You’ve been remade.
You are more than the choices that you’ve made,
You are more than the sum of your past mistakes,
You are more than the problems you create,
You’ve been remade.
‘Cause this is not about what you’ve done,
But what’s been done for you.
This is not about where you’ve been,
But where your brokenness brings you to
This is not about what you feel,
But what He felt to forgive you,
And what He felt to make you loved.
You are more than the choices that you’ve made,
You are more than the sum of your past mistakes,
You are more than the problems you create,
You’ve been remade.
You are more than the choices that you’ve made,
You are more than the sum of your past mistakes,
You are more than the problems you create,
You’ve been remade.
You’ve been remade
You’ve been remade.
You’ve been remade.
“For in Christ, we’re free to struggle.”
